I'm very "fan"

I'm very fan now.. just no mood to do things.. dunno why.. really dun hv mood.. i waste my entire weekend.. do nothing at all.. yet monday need to pass up my documentation.. how i going to survive... feel sad.. really down...

perhaps i'm running away.. running away from my burdens... my responsiblities as a undergraduate.. why why why.... i'm so fai... i keep blaming myself... i hate myself..

Tired

Really really tired.. y am i so tired... ai... too many homework...
most headache things is my PSM... i got a lot of documentation need to do... need to do some coding also... have to complete it within this week.. oh my god.. where is my god... but sometime i'll let myself have a break also.. run away from all these homework.. haha.. i just came back from muar... haha... a great escape..

going to graduate soon.. what is the feeling rigth now? unbearable for something such as friends, bf and etc.. to all my friends.. don't forget me oh.. haha.. to my bf.. hope that we "still the same" even after gradaute..

hmm.. feel happy also coz no need to face homework and exam anymore.. but scare also .. scare whether able to find a good job... scare whether will become jobless.. it's scaring me..